i hate today!

i realy don't know how to begin this..

okay..

i don't know why..

today i feel very bad..

i went to college today,and found out..

i can't join the kitchen practical classes..

because i'm still sick..

then i went home..and try to put my self together..

i went to sleep,i chatt,wantching "friends" until season 1 episode 4..

i eat and drink my medicine..

okay..

then..7 oclock..

i decided to went out to have dinner with my friend..

then,i went there..eat..then go to the apartment i want to move next week..

1st,i still confused if i wanna move or not..

coz it's one floor with the guy i was talking about..

and here's the thing..

when i moved to malaysia..

i've got a few friends that staying in one apartment infront of my college..

then,we get closed to each other because..

we spend our days together as a friends..

and there is where i meet that guy..

coz he is one of them..

but never mind now..

and now..

i feel that they avoid me pretty much..

i don't know why..

i don't know how and when..

and they never told me anything..

soo..i never know..

the only thing i know..

coz they've got problems by their own..

but,i saw them laughing at each other..

is it me?or its only my mind telling me..

that they hate me..?and they are trying to avoid me..

that they didn't want me to join..if they all go..

can anyone just tell me why????

argghh..

i'm mad and i'm confused..T.T

just tell me why you guys doing that?

in this kind of situation..

i really need you guys..

maybe you just don't know..

and last..

soo,i went home..

and the security in my apartment..

don't allowed me to go in..

what the helll????????

i pay my rent!and i can't go in????

it's a reallllllllyyyyyy bad day for me..:(

soo,i told them,i'm moving next week..

you know what he said??

"next week? okay fine..but after next week i never want to see you again!"

what the F????

did he own this apartment??

security have to secure this apartment..i know..

but not like this right??

i hate that freak security!!!

soo..

today..my life is complete..

because i just got typhoid..:(

nothing can be more worse than this..

i can't enjoy my life!!><

i need time and space!!

i need air to breath!!

i need true friends..:(